i fluctuate between the somewhat depressed and the soaringly happy. i cross the borders of Too Harsh while helping put pieces back together. i find myself smiling when i didnt know i could and see myself crying when there is no reason to. i am white, i am black. i laugh til i hurt myself but i laugh when i make others hurt. im sorry for so much but i cant bring myself to apologize when it matters. i dont mind casting aside my pride, even though i am ruled by it. i think im better than all of you but i think youre better than me too. i enjoy being alone in crowds. i hate the world but i love it so much.
i like the arrangement. it keeps me wondering what i'm going to do next.
i hope you know what youre getting into.
right now i just want to get things straight.
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